From forgiveness to apology

When clients ask me about forgiveness, my response is almost always “Don’t force it. When the time is right you will see there is nothing to forgive.” To get to this point, however, you have to come to a place of neutrality—that strong, stable, yet expansive space within. From your divine center, your sense of well-being does not depend on external circumstances. This inner light, the core of your Brilliant System, is the very definition Read more…

Working with what’s true, good, and beautiful

Lest I give the impression that being a memory keeper is some out-there, abstract, esoteric thing, let me ground the learning by showing how to work practically with these vibrations. Last week I shared how a very old trigger was activated and the wounding of my teenage self made it difficult for me to plug into my Higher Self. Over the years I’ve collected and trained in many tools for connecting with the Self, yet Read more…

Are you a memory keeper, pt 2

Yesterday I started sharing a recent download on being a memory keeper, centering around the notion of the divine Self in all of us. Today I am continuing the transmission by spiraling back to where I began, with the question of destroyer, preserver, and creator energies in the context of current events. Some of us are on the front lines of action, literally saving lives, actively tearing down old ways that no longer serve us, Read more…

Are you a memory keeper?

A couple days ago we went hounding for herkimers, and as I was silently moving mud around, searching for treasure, I started mulling over my place in this very strange world. Specifically, I was pondering the fact that all of us come into this planet with various mixtures of divine destroyer, preserver, and creator energy. I know, for example, that Pele walks with me and endows me with the ability to burn down aspects of Read more…

Losing and refinding the self

The hardest part of weathering the drama of the last week was waking up each day feeling not myself, and thus being unable to hear my inner voice. When I connected with my Akashic Records, I found paradoxically choppy but stagnant waters, and I couldn’t find the flow. There was a background buzz of amusement from my guides because I sensed that the way out of stagnation was up, but I was stubbornly looking for Read more…

What remains

Once upon a time, without any warning, I never went back home from summer vacation, and was placed at the very last minute as an international student at an American boarding school. It was a rough first year, but sometime along the way I lost my accented English, found a circle of friends, and came to regard the school as a second home. By senior year I’d achieved many of the things members of the Read more…

Experiencing the web of life

Yesterday while rockhounding in a wooded quarry, I felt myself suddenly pulled by a maple. It wasn’t the grandest tree in the place, and there really wasn’t anything about it physically that stood out, but it just felt different to me. I usually describe being in the heart field of a tree as better than receiving a reiki session. I feel myself actively being rebalanced by a beautiful flow of energy. Sometimes I receive messages, Read more…

Blessings of deer

Earlier this spring I asked the deva of deer to help me find balance and harmony with their booming population. We purposely grow enough veggies to share, and I try to do the same with my hostas by planting offerings on the margins. Used to be that they munched a bit here and there, but in the last two years the deer have consistently wiped out my collection. They are literally left with no foliage Read more…

The fruits of my pregnant pause

Been listening and observing and reconnecting and conversing and recentering and learning and processing. All I will say for now, to keep it brief, is that as a brown-skinned immigrant, I always felt somewhat like an outsider to US history and the country’s interracial dynamics. Yet in these past few days, that has shifted, and I feel more firmly ensconced as a naturalized citizen. In the meantime, my garden has continued growing, as if nothing Read more…

Justice for George Floyd

It’s taken me awhile to gather my thoughts on the killing of George Floyd because his death has brought up a lot of stuff and I didn’t simply want to add obvious anger to the public conversation. I speak only for myself, so don’t take this as my opinion on how you should be responding, but I now choose to channel that outrage toward political leaders rather than fellow citizens. What follows is not any Read more…